Monday, June 20, 2011

things my mama & joni taught me about love.

this week,
it's been joni mitchell,
helping me make sense of things,
and love,
and life.
(these can be tricky and fickle things).
but beautiful, no doubt.

my mama always taught me to be a wildflower.
she loved my pops,
but spoke of her true love when i was old enough.
mike cavannah.
wherever you are,
...she still loves you.


i wonder if he'll ever know...
i tried to find him once,
one summer before we went home to chicago.
i even borrowed my grandpa's car
and drove to his only known address.
i met his folks,
aged with time.
they said he hadn't lived there in years.
when they asked who i was
i told them,
'just a friend of a friend'.
i said goodbye and quickly left
and sat in my car,
outside a little cemetery for hours.
when i came home,
i told my family i had been at the mall.
i never told my mom.


here are some lovely little lyrics
from joni, about love and life
and all the silly little sorrows.


little green
{blue album}

lyrics:
born with the moon of cancer
choose her a name she will answer to
call her green and the winters cannot fade her
call her green for the children who have made her
little, green, be a gypsy dancer.

he went to california
hearing that everything's warmer there
so you write him a letter, say, "her eyes are blue."
he sends you a poem and she's lost to you
little green, he's a non-conformer.

just a little green
like the color when the spring is born
there'll be crocuses to bring to school tomorrow
just a little green
like the nights when the Northern lights perform
there'll be icicles and birthday clothes
and sometimes there'll be sorrow.

child with a child pretending
weary of lies you are sending home
so you sign all the papers in the family name
you're sad and you're sorry, but you're not ashamed.
little green, have a happy ending.

just a little green
like the color when the spring is born
there'll be crocuses to bring to school tomorrow
just a little green
like the nights when the Northern lights perform
there'll be icicles and birthday clothes
and sometimes there'll be sorrow.



a case of you
{blue album}

lyrics:
just before our love got lost you said,
"i am as constant as a northern star."
and i said, "constantly in the darkness
where's that at?
if you want me i'll be at the bar."
on the back of a cartoon coaster
in the blue t.v. screen light
i drew a map of canada
oh canada
with your face sketched on it twice
oh, you are in my blood like holy wine
you taste so bitter and so sweet
oh i could drink a case of you, darling
and i would still be on my feet
i would still be on my feet

oh i am a lonely painter
i live in a box of paints
i'm frightened by the devil
and i'm drawn to those ones that ain't afraid
i remember that time you told me, you said,
"love is touching souls"
well surely you touched mine
'cause part of you pours out of me
in these lines from time to time
oh, you're in my blood like holy wine
you taste so bitter and so sweet
oh i could drink a case of you, darling
and i would still be on my feet
i would still be on my feet

i met a woman
she had a mouth like yours
she knew your life
she knew your devils and your deeds
and she said, "go to him, stay with him
if you can
but be prepared to bleed."
but you are in my blood
you're my holy wine
you taste so bitter and so sweet
oh, i could drink a case of you, darling
and i would still be on my feet
i would still be on my feet.



my listening and thinking and sometimes reading, glasses:

{i'll be the sea, if you'll be the moon.}

hapy monday.xo.



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