things my mama & joni taught me about love.

this week,

it's been joni mitchell,

helping me make sense of things,

and love,

and life.

(these can be tricky and fickle things).

but beautiful, no doubt.

my mama always taught me to be a wildflower.

she loved my pops,

but spoke of her true love when i was old enough.

mike cavannah.

wherever you are,

...she still loves you.

i wonder if he'll ever know...

i tried to find him once,

one summer before we went home to chicago.

i even borrowed my grandpa's car

and drove to his only known address.

i met his folks,

aged with time.

they said he hadn't lived there in years.

when they asked who i was

i told them,

'just a friend of a friend'.

i said goodbye and quickly left

and sat in my car,

outside a little cemetery for hours.

when i came home,

i told my family i had been at the mall.
i never told my mom.

here are some lovely little lyrics

from joni, about love and life

and all the silly little sorrows.

little green

{blue album}

listen here.

lyrics:

born with the moon of cancer

choose her a name she will answer to

call her green and the winters cannot fade her

call her green for the children who have made her

little, green, be a gypsy dancer.

he went to california

hearing that everything's warmer there

so you write him a letter, say, "her eyes are blue."

he sends you a poem and she's lost to you

little green, he's a non-conformer.

just a little green

like the color when the spring is born

there'll be crocuses to bring to school tomorrow

just a little green

like the nights when the Northern lights perform

there'll be icicles and birthday clothes

and sometimes there'll be sorrow.

child with a child pretending

weary of lies you are sending home

so you sign all the papers in the family name

you're sad and you're sorry, but you're not ashamed.

little green, have a happy ending.

just a little green

like the color when the spring is born

there'll be crocuses to bring to school tomorrow

just a little green

like the nights when the Northern lights perform

there'll be icicles and birthday clothes

and sometimes there'll be sorrow.

a case of you

{blue album}

listen here.

lyrics:

just before our love got lost you said,

"i am as constant as a northern star."

and i said, "constantly in the darkness

where's that at?

if you want me i'll be at the bar."

on the back of a cartoon coaster

in the blue t.v. screen light

i drew a map of canada

oh canada

with your face sketched on it twice

oh, you are in my blood like holy wine

you taste so bitter and so sweet

oh i could drink a case of you, darling

and i would still be on my feet

i would still be on my feet

oh i am a lonely painter

i live in a box of paints

i'm frightened by the devil

and i'm drawn to those ones that ain't afraid

i remember that time you told me, you said,

"love is touching souls"

well surely you touched mine

'cause part of you pours out of me

in these lines from time to time

oh, you're in my blood like holy wine

you taste so bitter and so sweet

oh i could drink a case of you, darling

and i would still be on my feet

i would still be on my feet

i met a woman

she had a mouth like yours

she knew your life

she knew your devils and your deeds

and she said, "go to him, stay with him

if you can

but be prepared to bleed."

but you are in my blood

you're my holy wine

you taste so bitter and so sweet

oh, i could drink a case of you, darling

and i would still be on my feet

i would still be on my feet.



my listening and thinking and sometimes reading, glasses:



{i'll be the sea, if you'll be the moon.}



hapy monday.xo.